Meaning of Life

Close to mid 20’s. Feeling the pace of the time, it just goes so fast. I was always thinking about the beauty of the world, nature, human race itself. But does everyone feels like that or is it a personal think? These last years maybe 2 years, i am trying to feel happier but i can’t. Do i know why? Trying… Maybe it is because i am in a certain age and doesn’t have a girl/boy friend. But, i was always like that. I can’t be with someone only because i need someone to be together. I should love first or at least i look for some criterias. Like loyalty, having respect all others and some mature behaviors. And it is hard to find someone for me right now. Maybe it is not about this issue. I actually don’t know what to do in the future. I mean, i study engineering but i always had higher goals in my mind. I never wanted to be white collar worker, ordinary. I wanted to become in a high position in the firm, factory ext, maybe i can but who knows? Feeling most of the time depressive, not showing outside but inside! Do we study for years just to work whole of our life’ between 9 am to 18pm? Not so fair.